Well it is almost that time of the year where you say good bye to 2007 and welcome 2008!! OMG what a year it certainly has been. I am 3 months shy of being banded for 1 year, so I'll be celebrating my very first bandaversary soon!! YAY for me!!! I don't think I would have reached my goal weight by my 30th birthday. I think I am about 25 kilos away, but now I'll use my bandaversary as a goal date!!
I certainly have become more active and sometimes I think where does all the energy come from as I feel as though I can dance the night away sometimes!! I am still a bit of a slacker when it comes the gym. I know I really have to make an effort to tone the body up, but it's just a time issue really. I know what you are all thinking, excuses, excuses!!
I have had some fill put back in since my little incident in hospital. Dr Watson only put half of what I had. I still feel as though I could have a tad more, but I won't get as much as what I had before as I feel as though I was overfilled, but didn't want to admit that I was. I think I have only PB'd twice and that was my own stupid fault for not chewing my food enough!! No matter how hard I try and imprint it in my brain, i still haven't got the concept of smaller bite sized pieces of food. I will learn eventually.
Christmas day is going to be very interesting though. Normally I gorge myself silly and then feel sorry for myself afterwards. This year is going to be very different indeed. Not just because I know I can't because if I do I'll be in severe pain, but I don't feel as though I want to do it. I have lost all this weight and I don't want to undo it. So I guess I am coming to my senses in a way as well.
I have hit an ultimate high through this experience and that's the compliments and pick ups that I am getting. It's so very flattering and makes my head spin. I still look in the mirror though and see this other person that I was staring back at me. it's not a pretty sight at all!! But then i have to slap myself and tell myself that, 'That person doesn't exist anymore!!'
